My things and its my way

Thinking....

2 years ago I wasn't this calm. Used to speak a lot, a lot and lot. Some hundreds of times than what I speak now. Never used to listen other words. They used to call me, a non-stop blabbering machine who talk more and listen less. But I have changed, changed to the core. Now when ever  I try to start a conversation something  goes into my mind  and stops me doing so. I felt weired after that chocolate room incident, if i was the same old guy I would have turned the situation the other way around. But the good thing about being calm is, none will call me sadist. Actually everyone forgot calling me sadist and psycho or sadco.  I never used to torture people but used to arrogate, control everyone's situations. I used to have my ways of dealing the things, so it happened. 

           Once again I'm  sorry for the people who tried to contact me, Sorry for not turning up. May be I have changed, but I think you know the reason for it. Situation demands. Life is such, Sometime we change, sometimes others change. It happens to make our path better.  May be I'm still the same... headstrong natured, rude, arrogant but I don't want things to move again to the extremities. So sometimes I'm  leaving all my attitude behind everything to make it cool and simple.

              I Proudly used to say "I only speak and care for the people I like. If I think dey cant work out with me, I dont even care dem, no matter what and who they are", but recently my sister pointed that I'm wrong. After a long conversation the conclusion drawn was that I'm trying to make others think good of me by letting my happiness and the things I want to be done in my way go opposite.  She asked me, why I want others to think good of me when they can't understand me or understand what I do. I didn't have any point to argue. May be she is right, After all they are My things and its my way. Why the hell do I need to make others think good of me !? .

                  
                              Whatever, Suddenly I got bored of movies, laptop, shopping, gadgets, messaging, mobile and chatting. I wanna live off the land and people I know for some time. This is not the effect of Into the wild or Man vs Wild, but I feel like going alone, spending time with people who I really dunooo. I have got things to plan and I got some of the greatest of memories to recollect them and spend time. Few memories last long.. Really long. This trip may be for a week, may be for a month but till I get this feeling pass over me.

P.S.: I really like to speak to Ms.Cute Little Harsha a lot. Its nice to speak to her all the time, it always takes my pressure off.  It would have been better if she was my real sister. May be Anvi would make it happen :-p